I haven?t been fully committed to it and now that I?ve said I?m not doing anymore I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I only decided to do it on a whim the day before it started and I?ve only written 4000 words so far and we?re already a third into the timeline of the contest. I like to think that I could have completed it but I?d be lying. Maybe at the beginning I thought it was possible, but I am not a writer, and never have been.
Yes I know I can ?write?, but I just wasn?t feeling it, and would prefer to spend the next few weeks catching up on some other projects that I only half-heartedy started and need to complete.
For regular readers of this blog you?ll know I do this kinda thing every so often and have in the past considered stopping this blog because I couldn?t be bothered, but I have always returned, tail between my legs, and so it is not the end of my NaNoWriMo career but certainly I will not be finishing my novel by the set deadline. I do get bored easily and am always wanting to try and new things, but I should really have some restraint.
There is nothing to compare to that satisfying feeling of completing something, and I have quite a big list of things that need to be done, so I?ll try and get them done, and then maybe I could consider committing myself to something as big as NaNoWriMo. I wish I?d thought this out better?.