I am well aware that the blog has gone a little stale, hell, I?m even boring myself here, but as we all know, it?s not just here for amusement and insight but also to keep a record of what?s going on in my life and has documented (mostly) throughout the last five years with only a few blips in between.
I?ve just checked my archives and see that my first ever post was on 10th May 2004, so I?ve actually missed out on a mini celebration as five years is quite a milestone. I?ve considered quitting a few times before but I do like the fact that I can crawl through the archives and see what?s been going on in my life. Okay it mostly documents the really boring bits in my life but it?s good nonetheless.
The first post went like this if you?re interested:
My friend Dave told me about blogging so I thought Fuck it and am gonna give it a go. Well have to see how long it lasts. Hmm now to find stuff to put on it. ? adem
So 5 years ago I was 23 and living and working in Chichester. Today I?m *thinking* ?.28 and living and working in Thanet. But I?m still working in Students? Unions and my recent development is that I own my own house now, bought a couple of months ago (have I told you that yet?? yawn?).
Five years is a long time I think, but is it? The weeks and months seem to fly by, and when it?s just 260 weeks or 60 months then it doesn?t seem that long at all. A month can fly by, so why not 60 months?
Getting a house always seemed to be one of the huge hurdles and although I know it?s not the most important thing, it is something I?ve wanted and it gives me stability and gives me foundations (yes I know, literally too, but I meant it metaphorically). Five years ago I was living in a shared flat, living on my overdraft, and still generally living the student life although I had graduated two years previous. I wasn?t sure what life had for me and I guess being 28 seemed a long way in the future and I wouldn?t have thought that I?d still be here typing away on this blog.
I?m not sure what I would?ve expected to achieve in five years?.. But looking back to have a stable job and my own house isn?t too bad an achievement, although I?m sure at the time I expected grander things. What more could I have expected? I perhaps would?ve expected to be in some kind of relationship, but that has taken a backseat for quite a while now due to a variety of different things and maybe I am destined to single. I hope not and is it wrong for me to think that now I?ve got the house out of the way I can move on to getting a lady friend?? I?m not one to conform to suburban ideals all the time and I feel like an idiot for having a checklist for happiness ? Got job? check. Got house? check. Got partner? umm? but I assume that will make me happy and ?complete? any emptiness in my life.
Is that wrong? I know that it?s not that simple, and that won?t solve all lifes problems, but it?s something I want.
Maybe in 5 years time I?ll be able to tell you that I?ve finally found someone!